Back Online

Phew! For the past month, I've been waiting, waiting, waiting for DSL to come back into my life. A move messes lots of things up. Many of these things, like naptime, I fully expected to surrender to. But connetion to the outside world? I must say, it's been a rocky road without the internet. And to think I didn't even send my first email until I was on my mission. Anyway, I'm back. I had several lighting bolt moments today regarding how much my kids notice me. My sister-in-law, Ginger, sent me a little article one mom wrote about how she feels invisible, likening herself to the builders of the cathedrals in Europe, and I must admit, a little joke I have with Nathan is that I feel like the Bones...the one that holds everything up and together, but nobody ever sees. But, today, I had these little moments when I just thought to myself...Huh...maybe they are all just pretending not to know I am there. Like tonight, we went to dinner at Deborah and Eric's. Kate was one the floor so I could eat a taco at lightening speed, but in typical Kate style, she was fussing becasue she was not being looked and cooed at. Well, Eric walked over and started talking to her in a friendly, sweet tone. She immediately started screaming, sticking her little lip out as far as she could. As soon as she saw me she broke into a smile and settled right down. SHE KNOWS ME! I thought. What's more, I think she likes me. Also, Sam has started trying to read my moods. If he ears even a little tinge of frusteration in my voice, he stops everything that he doing, even if it means parking Lightening McQueen and asks, "Mommy, are you happy or sad?" He's done it a few times in the past weeks, but today, he did it about five times. Maybe I'm like the fire bug (or in our house otherwise known as the boxelder bug) They wear their bones on the outside which makes them next to impossible to get rid of. Maybe that's more like me these days. I'm still the bones, but maybe I'm more visible and undestructable than I think...